WAY over thinking things....

ugh
i hate boys
it's official
like i said in my last post.... what happens when you're more than friends but not in a relationship..
you get this sucky i'm to afraid to talk to you or look @ you or anything!
ugh
but we did talk
it was jsut idk
like i said WAY over thinking things
& i hate it!!!...
why can't life be like the movies.. only i don't want to go through the crapyp heart break, i want to get to the happy ending part already! haha
but idk..
even if we aren't "together" i just want us to go back to how we used to be
like a month ago..
when we would talk on the phone, & walk back from lunch, & hang out, & I DONT' KNOW!
ugh
i'm pretty sure i've said IDK & UGh 20 times already
but that's how i feel
so i've desided
this is for God
i'm tired of dealing with it.. i never get it right.. & God can never get anythign wrong..
so here we go
God i'm praying to you
PLEASE! just let your will be done!.. even if it's not for us to be together.. & let me have the patients to sit here & be ok with what you are doing & be ok with not knowing ever detail.. which is SO hard for me...
ugh
he called.... we're talking now..
i'm confused..
ok any way
God...
it's all in your hands now....